here I am, this is me
there's nowhere else I’d rather be..

we almost always blame our life for being the way it is, putting us in the rut we are in, giving us all that we just don’t want! But aren't we actually exactly what we've chosen to be? WE choose our thoughts, our friends, our careers.. And even in all that we apparently don’t get to choose {eg. our family}, we still always have the choice of how to respond to the situation, if not actively create it.

for example, I guess all of us want to be "a better person", I know I do. Well, whose stopping me? I dunno if I’m waiting for Christmas or for God to send me an angel to put things right for me. But why these doubts, why this indecision, why all this inertia and procrastination. Maybe cuz the path ahead is foggy and unclear and I’m not quite sure which direction is the right one. I cant see the end of the road I’m taking, but I guess if I keep taking one right step at a time, it will eventually lead me through the right path, even if the bigger picture isn’t clear right now.