the rest of my life is already here
time to move forward, shedding all fears
its time for me to let go and grow up
i still cling to my innocence, not willing to give up

it had been too long that i was standing on the edge
this year came as the push which threw off the ledge
a panicked child, i grappled for the shore
learned to swim, evolved into something more..

Another year has rushed past
Disappeared in a blink, gone too fast
An year well spent, both fruitful and rotten
Some lessons learnt and others forgotten

Things have changed, life isn't what it used to be
The world's been changing shades, i am a new me
For better or for worse, that's still to know
The journey has just begin, with a long long way to go

here I am, this is me
there's nowhere else I’d rather be..

we almost always blame our life for being the way it is, putting us in the rut we are in, giving us all that we just don’t want! But aren't we actually exactly what we've chosen to be? WE choose our thoughts, our friends, our careers.. And even in all that we apparently don’t get to choose {eg. our family}, we still always have the choice of how to respond to the situation, if not actively create it.

for example, I guess all of us want to be "a better person", I know I do. Well, whose stopping me? I dunno if I’m waiting for Christmas or for God to send me an angel to put things right for me. But why these doubts, why this indecision, why all this inertia and procrastination. Maybe cuz the path ahead is foggy and unclear and I’m not quite sure which direction is the right one. I cant see the end of the road I’m taking, but I guess if I keep taking one right step at a time, it will eventually lead me through the right path, even if the bigger picture isn’t clear right now.

dekha jaye to every day, every moment of life is a new beginning, moreover an opportunity of it. As they say- wisdom is knowledge put to action, so here's trying to actually do what i know i 'should' be doing, just one of the millions of things learned which await application, their time too shall come.
penning my thoughts, though always a rather satisfying experience, isn't somethin i do much.. hopefully creating a space to do just that will inspire me to actually do it more often :p
so here's to a new beginning.. one of so many more to come
cheers!